When you realize you're in love! Last night was the first time in a while that I had mentally clicked with my boyfriend on like a completely deeper level. It's just so satisfying. It was kind of sad because he told me that he's going to be going to school in North Carolina in the fall, and I threw a complete fit, and I didn't realize how selfish I was being. I could totally be plagued with some boyfriend who doesn't go to school, and although he doesn't have a job, he always finds a way to treat me to nice things and I'm so thankful for that.
But it wasn't until he was holding me, and I started thinking and crying (because i'm such a damn pessimist) about all the things that could go wrong, ie; him finding a better girlfriend, us growing apart, him cheating, etc. but to my surprise he had went through all the same thoughts when I told him I was studying abroad. I didn't think about the fact that I would be standing in an airport with tears coming down my eyes, saying 'see ya later' to my family, and my boyfriend. It was overwhelming because he started opening up saying how he's thought the worse, ie; what if I get drunk and hook up with some random Cypriot (which I assure you will never happen) and even breaking up with him just because I don't want to hold him down while I'm away.
He pulled my head up and looked me directly in my eyes and wiped my tears from my face. It wasn't until then that I realized I am really in love with him. He assured me of regardless of ANYTHING that happens he isn't going anywhere, and it's just the assurance I needed. It made me feel good to know that someone loves me just as much, if not more, than I love them. It's beautiful, regardless of all the ups and downs that we've had, I'm reaallly thankful for him.
Wow, I can't believe it..
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