Being Bad..

One thing that I have become mildly obsessed with is the newest season of Bad Girls Club. For those of you who don't know it airs on Oxygen at 10pm on Tuesdays, and it's one of the best/ only shows I faithfully watch on television.

I'm not sure what it is that caused me to become so obsessed with this show but now i'm hooked. My friends && I have decided that I am destined to be on that show, and that I have the qualities to be picked up! The funniest part is that we've created our own Bad Girls Club- Oxford Edition, and we really do fuck stuff up. It might be one of the most fun things that i've done with friends, and the spontaneousness as well as wild and crazy actions keep me Euphoric.


A lot of people say I remind them of Natalie, and although she got "beat up" on the show, everyone agrees that I am untamable as she is. She's a go getter, a hustler, and wild and crazy. She controls everything around her and scarily, so do I. The sad part is that she's not as dumb as people make her out to be. She has a Bachelor's in Sociology so although she acts like a total nut on television, at least she has a degree.
I know that if one day I do make it on the show.. i'm gonna FUCK SOME SHIT UP! hahha.

Twenty ; Ten.

Well well well.. How about starting out 2010 with my main man Insomnia. As irritated as I should be, i'm not. && just sitting here trying to piece every moment of NYE together is keeping me quite entertained. Between kissing 2 white guys, one gay and one just creepy, and mixing Patron & Everclear shots, I was a complete mess. It was the usual Clifton shit show-- but I was grateful to spend it with some of the ones I love. As midnight crept up I was subtly reminded that I had a resolution to make and attend to so I think I finally have it!

In 2010 I want to continue to build strong relationships with people as well as bettering my judgement of who is good for me and who is bad for me. I want to be able to positively shed those that are keeping me down, and not working with me for my better  good rather than against me. I know that haters are motivators but I don't want to have haters that are considered my friends. I also want to continue to vent in a positive manner as well as continue to eat healthy and take my medication. Along with these smaller resolutions I want to work on being more feminine/ girly as well as not giving off a "homegirl" vibe to every guy that I meet.

I hope to be able to come back to these resolutions and track my progress.

Happy New Year everyone!

xoxo- Renee

Oh sweet living...

As I post this blog I'm sitting in a remote location in a empty Waffle House.now I can't begin to explain every emotion that I've felt today. Its so weird that Christmas is tomorrow, and if no one would of broadcasted in we never would of known. It's just been weird. In between the crying fits and the irritation and having to slave to buy gifts I've just all worn out. And then being here in Cincy and going to all the local spots that I usually go to without tyler, I'm not gonna attempt to lie is crazy. Eating this waffle house without him munching on my hash browns, or even when I went to o'charleys and ate dinner not seeing him be a fat ass and eating tons of bread lol. What can I say.. When good times and good they're great.. But I guess the many good times couldn't compete with the often bad times we had. The only thing you can do is think good thoughts and continue to pray for happiness and success for each and every person. Well I'm done for now I'll post again later on tonight!

Pop Culture

My break has come to a brilliant beginning. I have great new books that I will be reading as well as enjoying & tons of gifts to wrap. 

Friday I went to see The Nutcracker put on by the Cincinnati Ballet Company, which was a gift to me from Deanna. It was BEYOND amazing. I enjoyed every bit of it; especially since the last time i went i was a youngin'. 

Today, I went to see Avatar & Princess & the Frog. Both movies were quite enjoyable and I would recommend that if you haven't seen them you need to!

Study Break

Okay so as if you guys didn't already know, my life is plagued. Not only has this week been AWFUL, but it's been AWFUL. haha. SO this week, my aunt Mildred died.. which is really unfortunate because at my Uncle Micheal's body viewing she seemed jussst fine, and they said when she passed away she had stopped doing her laundry to take a nap; and she didn't wake up. But i guess since she went peacefully, that's all we can be thankful for.

Also, my "strep throat" that McCollough-Hyde hospital diagnosed actually was Swine flu .. which i still have now. It was so weird how one night i was fine; and then i woke up with a 106 fever and could barely breathe. It was beyond scary but i'm glad i got up when I did cuz God knows what could have happened. Also while getting the 5 tubes of blood work done, they discovered that I'm Anemic. Wow, well if it isn't one thing then it's another. Now isn't that great!


But on to better things, Exam week is QUICKLY approaching, and thanks to Shelton I have a sweet ass program that blocks facebook, twitter, and any other form of distraction that I can get into online for a set amount of time. It's crazy because there is no way to stop the timer ones its set.

Here's the link; http://dev.eyebeam.org/projects/selfcontrol-app/wiki/SelfControl-app

&& I promise you; so far i've been majorly productive! :) and with that said gotta go now!


Xoxo- Renee

Progress

Well- tonight seems to be another typical night, no matter the day of the week. But for some reason this sunday is different than any other, because I finished all my work at 9pm. Strange to me; because I have this feeling that I'm missing something. But whatever.

As i'm laying here in bed, I scanned through my old iPod && I found a few songs that hold a lot of value to my life. And as usual, i'm emotionally scanning through my current state of mind & life standing. As i'm looking backwards, I realize that this is the last week of the semester. I have officially completed 4 semesters in college & for some reason this is not believable to me. It's a love/hate bittersweet feeling. And looking back, I'm proud of where I am right now. I'm standing on my own, independent, in a positive mindset, and although I haven't participated in all the clubs I've wanted to; I have all next semester to jump in and join some. I'm pleased with where I am in regards to my friends as well. I came in thinking I would be fully isolated from everyone, and although I began that way, my friends stepped in and refused to let me dwell in my own self pity forever, and I love them for that.

I guess the saddest part of this semester coming to a close is the fact that my bestie, Kordny, is heading back to Chitown. Unfortunately she's transferring, but whatever makes her happy; i'm down with. The worse part will just be those horrible drives/megabus rides to Chicago. hmmm. But i've never been so I guess it'll be sort of an, adventure. But i'm very thankful for meeting her, and like we said a few times this weekend, "Man you my nigga! We done argued, and irritated the shit out of each other, and we still besties & ride or die's" smh.. I'ma miss having dinner with her every night n going to the library & everything else we do together on campus. Forever my ball out til we fall out buddy, and FOREVER my Best Friend. :(

Well after i got that off my chest i'm feeling pretty sad. so i'm going to bed.

-xoxo Renee

RIhanna

As I am aware that it is 2:45AM I chose to drop a blog posting. I'm currently up listening to Rihanna, I don't have to go to class for the rest of the week, because I have strep throat, and I am contagious for 2 more days until my antibiotics kick in full speed.

Sitting here I realized, Rihanna is a really talented artist and she has bomb ass stylist because she always looks great. I remember when I first heard her CD and I had a poster of her hanging on my wall from her CD cover. At the time she was known for wearing baggy jeans, dancing on the island, and singing dance songs. Now Rihanna has evolved into a mogul. She's a trendsetter and very risky in her attire and I like it. Listening to her CD i just wanna reveal a few tracks that are to die for. It also shows her evolution as an artist. Going from her first song, Pon de Replay.. to my favorite song on her new album, G4L, is a MAJOR TRANSITION. She's nw singing about revenge, love, and being bad; while pon de replay was simply telling the DJ she wanted to dance. I love this new Rihanna, because she's fetch. 




xoxo-- Renee