Well- tonight seems to be another typical night, no matter the day of the week. But for some reason this sunday is different than any other, because I finished all my work at 9pm. Strange to me; because I have this feeling that I'm missing something. But whatever.
As i'm laying here in bed, I scanned through my old iPod && I found a few songs that hold a lot of value to my life. And as usual, i'm emotionally scanning through my current state of mind & life standing. As i'm looking backwards, I realize that this is the last week of the semester. I have officially completed 4 semesters in college & for some reason this is not believable to me. It's a love/hate bittersweet feeling. And looking back, I'm proud of where I am right now. I'm standing on my own, independent, in a positive mindset, and although I haven't participated in all the clubs I've wanted to; I have all next semester to jump in and join some. I'm pleased with where I am in regards to my friends as well. I came in thinking I would be fully isolated from everyone, and although I began that way, my friends stepped in and refused to let me dwell in my own self pity forever, and I love them for that.
I guess the saddest part of this semester coming to a close is the fact that my bestie, Kordny, is heading back to Chitown. Unfortunately she's transferring, but whatever makes her happy; i'm down with. The worse part will just be those horrible drives/megabus rides to Chicago. hmmm. But i've never been so I guess it'll be sort of an, adventure. But i'm very thankful for meeting her, and like we said a few times this weekend, "Man you my nigga! We done argued, and irritated the shit out of each other, and we still besties & ride or die's" smh.. I'ma miss having dinner with her every night n going to the library & everything else we do together on campus. Forever my ball out til we fall out buddy, and FOREVER my Best Friend. :(
Well after i got that off my chest i'm feeling pretty sad. so i'm going to bed.
-xoxo Renee